My altar

I am kinda into witchcraft.  Yup said it feels good.  What I really like about witchcraft is the honoring of nature and recognizing that there is not separation from you and spirit. Plus there is a real thing about the sacred feminine and as I get older I really want to be in my feminine power.

As in many spiritual practices altars are used.  My teacher Rory sees altars as portals. The connection to the divine is not a one-sided relationship though; so people will ask and then give at an altar.  The altar which doesn’t have to be fancy.  In fact my teacher Rory says that we are a living altar.  I saw her Friday night in my class and she talked about using altars.  And then at the altar you leave something as a gift. Rory suggests that we are the best gift we can give.  Now she is not saying sacrifice yourself in the literal sense. But leaving behind a part of yourself at the altar.  You can leave a physical part of you like your hair or an emotional part of you like anger.   She said that is a much better gift than any other sacrifice.   When I heard this I felt a recognition in me because just a couple hours earlier I had my own sacrificial altar moment.

I went to the Go Pro Mountain Games in Vail, CO; I am a grand champion in kayaking. Just kidding! As a part of the games they have yoga.  For $90 you get a four day pass to 2 yoga classes a day plus a gift bag PLUS you can watch the games.  Then, they had additional yoga experiences there.  These were paddle board yoga and airreal yoga which you had to paid $10 a piece for which I thought was a deal.  Vail is absolutely beautiful.  And the 2ish hour drive there is so worth it because you drive to the mountains! So that is beautiful.  Anyways I wanted to stop at one of the scenic areas to take some pics.  As I sat there I was just so humbled and awed by the beauty.  Prior to stopping I had two pretty cool yoga classes one which was with Kathryn Budig.  Kathryn Budig is kind of a yogi-celebrity.  She did a great class and what I really liked about her was that she was so genuine and PS she liked my hair.  So I was just so grateful for the experience.  This all laid the groundwork for this moment at the scenic stop.  I was so grateful, so grateful for this moment by the mountains.  Then the gratefulness grew and grew.  Until I was crying with joy.  I cried because I was so grateful that I did not kill myself. My depression was so dark and at times I thought the only way through it was to end my life.  And up until this moment at the mountains I would actually feel angry at myself at times for not following through. BUT then there I was sitting by the highway crying because this moment would never have happened if I had followed through.  I would have thrown it all away- my husband, my cats, the awesomeness that is my life. Then, I realized that I could leave it here at this moment.  I could leave my self hatred my anger.  I realized that the mountains are so strong and they could take the weight of my burden.

On the way home I realized that I may go into the dark place again because unfortunately that is the cycle of depression.  But what I can now do is remember the mountains, my altar.  I left my tears and my darkness on the side of the road by the mountains.  So you could imagine how later that night when I was sitting in class and hearing what Rory said I felt like life was going exactly where it needed to be in this moment.  Furthermore, I ordered my business cards earlier in the week and I decided on a mountain theme, with no clue of what the next days would bring.

I know what my next tattoo is…and I will always remember the mountains.



I am going to tell you a little about me.  My name is Jen and I’m 34.  I like long walks on the beach and reading Hemingway…just kidding!  I mean I do like long walks on beaches but I hate going in the water.  Yup, totally weird right?

Anyways, I bought the wood block with the saying above in Boulder.  I truly feel that your vibe does attract not just your tribe but can affect your life.  This realization came when I began working with reiki.  Reiki means two works Rei means Life and Ki means force.  Reiki is the life force of the universe.  A reiki practitioner is given attunements that open them further to the energy.   As a reiki master I am just a vessel for the energy and do not do anything.  The energy will work where it needs to for your highest good.  This is what reiki did for me.  It truly started me on this wellness path and I would not be where I am today for it.

A couple years ago began yoga.  I always wanted to do it and went to my first class and loved it.  Yoga came at a particularly trying time in my life.  I am diagnosed with depression and anxiety.  Yoga helped me tremendously to find some solace when I was in a dark place.  I realized that I wanted to do so much more with my yoga practice and decided to become a yoga teacher.  At the beginning of my teacher training I didn’t think I would teach (I will discuss why in a later blog) by the end I was teaching.  I gone the gamut of going to three classes a day to now being lucky I practice at all.  But take note of what I said the word, practice.  It is a practice and it kinda goes against yoga to beat yourself up for not getting on your mat.  Just recognize it for what it is and try again.  You can always try again and I am in that place now.  I am working on getting back on my mat consistently.

I believe that the issues are truly in the tissues.  I am not discounting talk therapy or medication because guess what I use them too.  But I am speaking from experience when also I say that I also had emotional revelations after yoga, reiki and reflexology.  It’s because these tools like talk therapy provide an outlet.  Reflexology is based on the theory that the nerves end and begin in the feet. It is the role of the reflexology practitioner to touch these nerves and bring about relaxation. In today’s society the human body is under a great deal of stress. Reflexology turns off the bodies natural stress responses and turns on the bodies natural relaxation processes that bring about calm and balance.  I honestly got into reflexology because I was always amazed by my teacher.  She was able to tell you informative things about your health just based on her experience with your feet.

Throughout my wellness journey I was working as a social worker and pursued a masters degree at the University of Pennsylvania.  I find that social work goes well with reiki, yoga and reflexology.  All four are about meeting people where they are at.  In addition, I have worked as a child welfare social worker and a hospice social worker.  I doubt there is much out there to shock me anymore.  In fact, I have a very open mind and I have wellness tools to thank for that.

I can’t wait to meet you! Let’s Begin….